Day 04: A habit I wish I didn't have

Oh. My. Goodness.  I have LOTS of bad habits. How can I pick just one...

I worry and I over-analyze things. That may not be so much of a habit as a trait, but it's part of my make-up. I don't worry constantly, or over the minutia of life, but I worry about long-term stuff, the "what if" stuff (and I have various scenarios that play out), and I worry about stuff that happened in the past (that I can't seem to let go of) that may affect future items.

"Like what?" you might ask. For instance, I was using a special keyboard at work (one that I purchased) that was ergonomic in design. The keys were not quiet - just normal sounding. I type really fast. Fast typists are sometimes louder than slow typists. My immediate supervisor sent me a note and asked, "Do you have to use that keyboard? When I'm on the phone people can hear you type." It made me very self-conscious so now when I type (still - three years later), I try to take into consideration if she's on the phone or not. It doesn't matter that I hear her type or other people around me (we work in a cube environment - it's going to happen), I don't want to disturb them. Typing is our job; we write help files and documentation so others are going to be hearing keyboards clicking away. I've replaced my keyboard so it's quieter but my hands are less happy about it. (She's also said things to me like "I hear you type on IM.")

Another co-worker doesn't like to hear the sound of people eating apples. So, I only eat an apple when she's away from her desk. Since I only hear out of one ear, I try especially hard to be very conscious of the sounds I make so I don't disturb someone else. It's very hard to do and I sometimes dwell too much on  it.

I've been told I worry too much about Ron. But, I really don't think that it's too much as it's day-to-day life that we deal with. His son took him again Friday for another leg adjustment, so that was a big help. He said he thinks the injections are helping in his left knee. We found an older exercise machine that we think he can use, so I bought it. I couldn't really afford it but how could I afford "not" to buy it? I had to buy new glasses yesterday. Couldn't really afford those, either but I do need to see. Man, do I ever need to see! I bought some stuff at an estate sale this weekend to put on eBay to re-sell. Now that the deed is done, I've been wondering if I made the right decision, will they sell or will they not???? A couple of things are for Christmas for grandkids but other things I bought with the intention of re-selling. They aren't quite old enough to qualify as "vintage" for Etsy (1989 Turner Company Gone With the Wind dolls - still in boxes) so I will put them on eBay.

So, I guess my biggest habit that I wish I didn't have is to worry/over-analyze about things.