Thoughts on my birthday. Some times in life you wish you were older or younger, but you reach an age you say "I'll be so and so my next birthday" as if you have just won a great prize. You look in the mirror and see an image of your mother there. You see the bags under the eyes and the lines around the mouth and think "I earned those just by living."You think of family and friends no longer here... of the husband and daughter that left way before you were ready to let them go, the grandson you never got to know. He would be 24 next month, a man.
Then you think of the children, grandchildren, and great-grandchildren that have so enriched your life that are still here
God is good...This is my birthday. I am 80.
So, today is my birthday. I'm 54 and I don't have near the wisdom or deep thoughts that my mother has. I do agree with the thought that I've earned a great prize. I'm at the age where I hear that "so-and-so" died and realize that the person is MY age. I used to think that "my" age was really old. I look in the mirror and although I see the lines (I've earned them, too) and the circles under my eyes, I don't really "see" someone who is in her 50's. I still see "me" and I don't feel like I'm an old lady. I wonder if my grandkids think I'm an old lady???
I feel like I can still do the things I did in my 20s and 30s. I feel like I still have so much ahead of me, and then I realize that, at 54, I have left most of my lifespan in the past and the time left is probably so much shorter. What can I do with the remainder of the time that God has given to me? Have I used "His" time wisely in the past? How much more will He trust me with? How can I use what is left to bless others?
I don't know, but I pray that He gives me enough future time to see all of my children all happily settled and my grandchildren grown; I pray that He gives me the time and the opportunities to bless others. I pray that He uses me in whatever area that He has for me.
I'm thankful for my life.
God is good... This is my birthday. I'm 54.