Monday, August 1, 2011

Last-minute preparations

24 hours from now I will be waiting in my OR prep room. I'm a bit nervous but not terribly. My biggest fear is that once the screw is in my head, I will have trouble getting used to the feeling and will be sorry that I did it. I'm not horribly afraid, but just a little bit of a concern there. I really want to hear, but I'm just not sure of my own reaction to the feeling of a foreign object stuck to my skull. The phobias and anxiety attacks... they sneak up on me when I least expect it and cause me distress. I take Welbutrin daily for anxiety but I'm not too sure how well it works because I still occasionally have one. When that happens, I take .25mg Xanax. I don't take that every day but some days I take it twice. When I have trouble sleeping, that is what I use to help me sleep.

I ended up staying home this morning so I could try and get Ron in to see the respiratory therapist. I'm not sure I'll feel like doing it later this week. I could feel just fine. I could feel like crap. I just don't know. He's doing pretty good and thinks that he'll be able to take care of himself AND be able to help me out as well. I really think that he'll be doing good to just take care of himself, but I will let him do what he can to help me. He wants to be there for me like I've been there for him so it's important to let him do as much as possible.

We had dinner at Amy and Rex's house last night. He fixed grilled chicken breasts and a grilled pork tenderloin. They were both very good but we did enjoy the chicken a bit better. He'd added Gorgonzola cheese to the tenderloin and it was a bit strong for my tastes. It was good; different, but good. I took some potato chips, Texas toast, and baked beans. It was a nice dinner.

Isaiah is such a happy child these days. He has his "off" days, but he's mostly very happy. He is excited to be getting a baby sister and he talks a lot about "when" his baby sister is born. He usually says "my baby sister, Anna..."  He's very particular and wants us to know what her name is.

I have a few last-minute things that I need to accomplish today. I got the laundry washed, dried, and put away but I need to sweep and mop the floors. It amazes me how the kitchen floor can get so dirty so fast when it's just us (usually) coming and going! I think the wheelchair tires are actually "streaking" the floor with skid marks, kind of like when sneakers leave skid marks on floors. It cleans up easily but has to be done 2-3 times a week to keep it looking really clean. Honestly, I don't have 2-3 days a week worth of free time to keep it mopped up so I usually get it done only 1-2 times a week. I spot clean in between times. Another thing the wheelchair does is mat down the pile of the carpet. Even though we have a Berber carpet, with a design so the wheelchair tracks wouldn't show as much, I can still see the difference in the carpet. I like to make sure that it's swept quite often. Got to "git er done" today because I don't think I'll be running the sweeper in the next couple of days  though. LOL!

Better get off here and get things taken care of! If you're a praying person, please keep me (and Ron) in your prayers tomorrow. My surgery is scheduled for 10:00 Central time. I'm supposed to come home tomorrow afternoon sometime.

Virtual hugs and blessings to you all!



Thisisme. said...

Hi Teresa. Lots of prayers and hugs coming your way from me to you. Will be thinking of you and hoping that all goes well. Will be good when it's out of the way, and I pray that your hearing will be much improved as a result of the op. Take care.

colenic said...

Hugs and lots of positive vibes through the universe to you both- always...i know tht it will go well and that you will heal well..

labbie1 said...

Hugs and prayers for you and Ron and the family! Speedy recovery also!

Thisisme. said...

Me again Teresa. Just to say that, once the op is over and you feel up to it, pop over to my Blog, because there will be an award for you in tomorrow's post. Remember, "in quietness and trust is your strength".

SkippyMom said...

You are going to be just fine - it is outpatient, so that is a bonus for you, right? Easy peasy :) you will handle it with your usual aplomb. I know it!

Take care of you and I am sure that Ron will do really well taking care of him. You guys are an awesome team.

And just think, one day soon you will be able to hear better! WOOT WOO!

Rae said...

I am so far behind in reading blogs that I didn't know you were having surgery. Best wishes on your recovery. I will keep you in my prayers.

orchid said...

Good Morning!!!
I just woke up and my brain still not working well. But I just cannot wait to write, Teresa.
I am so impressed with you and your husband's relationship and care. I can guess his thoughts and concern for your surgery.
I deeply hope the smoothest op and least annoyance after it.
I truly hope you can stay in relaxed and calm as much as possible.
It is during the night here when you have op, but tonight I AM thinking about you and giving you prayers!!!
Lots of love and Hugs, xoxo, Orchid.

Further otice later, Dear friend.

Bouncin' Barb said...

Teresa...I'll be thinking of you tomorrow and know you'll come through with flying colors. Wishing you all the best tomorrow and Ron will do just fine. Can't wait to hear how it goes.



Pat said...

Good luck! I'll say a prayer!

kneesandpaws said...

Dear Teresa, I hope you made it through your surgery yesterday and that you are feeling well. I'm praying for a fast recovery and happy healing without too much difficulty.