Hmmm…

Amy said my blog has become boring and that I needed to spice it up a bit. LOL, not sure exactly what she means by spicing it up but I’ll try.

Maybe I complain too much. I don’t know. I don’t feel like I’m complaining when I state the truth. The truth is life is not much of a bed of roses right now. I think I landed in the thorns somewhere about 2000 or so and each time I climb out of the thorns, something pushes me back into them.

We were blessed this weekend by our good friends Kenni and Terry with some fresh produce. Ron’s already eaten about half of the strawberries and he said they were absolutely wonderful. He wanted me to bring the rest to work but I’d rather leave them for him. They’re something easy that he can grab and not have to worry about fixing. I plan on sautéing some of the other veggies tonight. Yellow squash, zucchini squash, red pepper, green pepper – yummy! They ought to be very good and I can bring them for lunch tomorrow.

Yesterday was Amy’s 27th birthday. We had some family over for cake and she got a couple of gifts. Isaiah “bought” her a $15 iTunes gift card and we got her a $15 Starbucks gift card. That girl likes her music and her Starbucks coffee!

Today was another trip to the foot specialist. All in all, the foot looks better. The bone is still exposed in one place and he may need further surgery on it. Dr. Heady will decide at our appointment next week if that is the case. I pray not. I know it’s hard for Ron to keep an upbeat attitude about all of it because I know it’s difficult for me to do so.

Next week Ron has four appointments. Monday back to the foot doctor, Wednesday to the infectious disease doctor, Thursday to have a Holter monitor put on, and Friday to have it removed. That’s at least 10 hours of work that I’m going to miss next week. Oh joy. Hard to be upbeat about that, that’s for sure.

Amy graduates from college next weekend. I’m very upbeat about that. I’m very proud of her as she’s worked very hard to get where she’s at. Her former Navy chief was so disappointed when she got out of the Navy. He said she’d never amount to anything without the Navy. She’s sending him a graduation announcement. I said she should circle or otherwise highlight the part that says she’s graduating with honors. Eat your heart out, Mike! We know he just said it because he was concerned about her coming back to Kansas and moving back in with her parents. Sure, living with us made it easier but she still had to do the work and put out the effort. I sure didn’t do it for her.

My back is in misery. I feel like I could absolutely break in two. I don’t know if it’s the bed, the scooter, or both. Amy said I should just get a new bed. LOL, that would be fine except I think I might need the $500-$600 for something else, like a house payment. I won’t need a bed if we don’t have a house so I’ll just make do with what I’ve got. She says that if I had a better bed, I’d get better rest and not be so rundown, which makes me miss more work because several times when I’ve taken Ron to the doctor I’ve come home and gone to bed because I didn’t feel well. Maybe. Maybe not. Maybe going to bed was just an excuse and a way to temporarily forget my troubles and my responsibilities. Who knows. I try to not analyze myself too much. I might find out things I would rather not know.

I’d go to the chiropractor but I don’t know when I can do that. I came in at 11:00 today. I should work until 6:00 in order to get 7 hours in. Ron wants to go to the grocery store this evening when I get home so I can’t stay any later than that. (Selfishly, I don’t want to take him because that’s more lifting I’d like to avoid. I know he wants to get out but it’s just tearing my back up. It needs a rest.) I can probably pick up the other hour by working 15 min or so extra each day this week. I am taking Friday afternoon off because my SIL is coming to visit and I have to pick her up at the airport. Ron wants to go so I will need time to go get him.

Amy says I should ask people to help me with Ron’s transportation to appointments. I don’t want to do that as I figure everyone else has just as much on their plate as I do, they all work fulltime jobs, or they aren’t physically capable of lifting the scooter. Besides, everyone in my circle already knows I’m missing a lot of work and pay and if they could or would, they’d let me know. If they don’t offer, I’m surely not going to put them on the spot by asking.

Amy asked Ron’s ex-wife if her husband and their son could help out. Her husband had heart bypass surgery not too long ago so he definitely can’t lift the scooter. The son is a lazy bum (just kidding – I love him, but he is lazy; sleeps all day because he stays up on the Internet gaming all night) and he said mornings are really tough for him and he works some days in the late afternoons/evenings. I think Karen felt put on the spot because she didn’t just jump right on it and say that she was sure they could work something out. I kind of backed out of it by saying that I didn’t want to ask them to do something like that and I didn’t know Amy was going to do so. Amy can’t do it because she’s taken off a lot of time with Isaiah (he’s had a rough winter) and she’s got to save what’s left of her PTO for him for next fall. Keith can’t really do it because he’s been sick this year, too and used up a lot of his PTO. Neither one of them can afford to take time off without pay so that leaves me. I don’t mind the time for him but I sure hate to see my paycheck afterwards. LOL!

I guess I do complain too much. So, here’s my resolution… I won’t say I’m tired, or my back hurts, or I don’t feel good. I won’t talk about money (or the lack thereof). No one really wants to hear it anyway. I know Amy doesn’t and she hears it the most. Isaiah doesn’t need to hear it. LOL, he’s already aware of when people feel sick or well and he frequently tells us we can do something with him because we “feel better.” I don’t really say much to anyone else if I’m feeling less than 100%. I will keep a positive outlook and rely on God as I know that He is in control and He already has the answers to our prayers covered.

If I write it here, then I’m really not saying anything and I’m not complaining or whining. Right?